Oh boy, she's gotten worse.
My mother and her delusions seem to be downward spiraling. I'm not sure how worse it can get, but somehow it always does. Sigh. The real reason I moved to China.
Hi [Vixen],
am wanting you to know that i have never felt more un-
healthy in my entire life.
I'm having trouble breathing
I can hardly move around (pain in right leg is now in left
leg, at least below the knee; i'm starting to think that
more than arthritis is at work
even walking is very painful, need support to minimize
the pain
my condo was broken into 5 times in the last week, with
noticable things missing each time. about 18 boxes of
lecture notes were taken along with some files with the
children's songs, and one whole box of childrens' songs
related material (my first and best to way to make $$
as my 'return' starts--which i'm wondering if will ever
return now
C. is too busy to help me, pick things up, etc (which
I accept and understand); last week it took 4 hours to
take the bus up to SavOn to get my medication (Ralphs
was out of bus cards, a waste of time; SavOn would not
accept my check--all were stolen and 'stop payment'
was placed on all; then I found 6 and they ended the
'on hold' status; even so, SavOn would not accept it; I
had cards for John Burton and his children, all sitting
still, I hope, under the counter there
whoever was here (I'm 100% sure who it is because
of the kinds of things that are taken--and sometimes
returned*;) was able to turn off the surveillance tape
and then erase back a bit, so there was no way of
proving who the burglar was (or plural)
Sean with the Honeywell security system (mine)
came over the day after I called and assessed the
situation; won't bother to explain, except that no one
will be able to turn it off again, or unplug it--unless
they want to pull out 3# of wall.; it will also be placed
in a hidden place.
18 important boxes were stolen, all perfectly filed,
the result of the past 5-6 weeks of solid filing; my
trash, the next morning, was packed to the brim
with round smooth bags all looking like they were
holding sheets of paper, no file folders. I should
have called C. immediately; i knew all of that
could not have been mine, but was confused by
seeking a 'dead' wall clock on top of the pile;
turns out there were only 2 bags in it when he
wheeled it out; when i went to add two more bags
in the am, i saw the clock on top and did not think
to call him and ask; i'm sure all those smooth
round bags, using the same kind of trash bags
that i use, were my lecture notes.
can you believe that anyone would be that cruel.
Sean was supposed to come yesterday afternoon
and didn't, which was very unusual for him (i just
talked to him on the phone and he fell asleep in
his car after a very long assignment in e.county,
his place of work before he was to come here; he
is fine--good news.
he comes tomorrow and puts an alarm on the
gate, and also the tarp! that cover my boxes; had
i had this protection a week ago, my valued things
would not have been taken.
you know that my starter disabler was cut two
different times, sending me into a panic state
(feeling very unsafe on the road); I will receive
a check for $3700 in a few days, with 2/3 going
to mom and the last 1/3 to pay off my credit
cards.
the house looks like a cyclone hit it--inside. So
many boxes were turned upside down. All the
5 weeks of bills/letters etc. were stolen two
mornings ago--can find 3, not the bag they
were in; this was the day the gate was almost
pushed open and i called the police, when i
had been gone 4 hours just to get my meds;
i came home with THAT mail, only to have it
gone the next day; the five weeks of mail
from my first po box disappeared when "the
invader" got into my bedroom late Sat. night
when Conan and I were outside and i was
watching him move what remained of the
packed boxes into the patio; i came back in
and everything was turned upside down in
the bedroom, clothes and stuff stuffed under
the bed, the closet searched, and THAT BAG
OF NEW MAIL WAS GONE. so...it is 10 weeks
of bills + that i am missing, and i do not know
who does not know that i have moved to a
new po box (that is what bag #1 would have
told me, which the postal annex man had
held for me for 5 weeks--free.
my credit cards are gone; all my checks,
though I found 3 of the 5 personal sets
yesterday.
i need to order food today--it is a pain to do,
does not go fast.
still, i am glad i do not have a car right now.
with -- messing with my car, i haven't felt
save since that time going to lax (it had
been fixed less than a year prior to that,
to the tune of $1000.) (cars are expensive).
got to finish the dishes and vacuum, so i am
that far along that i will have vacuumed car-
pet by tonight (part of it is just moving boxes
around).
Mom's gardener's son has a truck and will
help me probably next Sat. to take 3 big
loads to storage. I will probably bring dad's
chair back here, even though i don't know
where to put it, as this will give me more
space to stack boxes. And yet, 18 good
boxes are gone and hundreds!!! of file
folders, that I still need...and most likely
will never see again.
oh, final note; i found a gold earring twisted
to a point of total ugliness on my bedroom
floor; it was only last night when i saw it's
mate in a dish in my bathroom (where it
had not been before), and realized that
this set was my very best and favorite set
that i had bought at May Co. when we
shopped along Fletcher Parkkway. They
were $30. a set then, and now are not made
that way (loops, the perfect size for me). So,
this lets me know that -- has all my jewelry,
which has been missing since the time i
took you to LAX at one of your earlier
visits (the time my missing registers turned
up--do you remember my squeals of joy?).
they were taken again about 2 weeks later
and have not been seen since that time.
i've said enough. got to get to work even
though i don't feel well.
need to know what is wrong with my hip-rt,
and legs, also if my left side is OK after that
very bad fall after you and i had met for
lunch.
A police officer came out Thurs and took a
report for a full hour, walking through the
house with me, looking at my sec. system
as well. he wants me to write up everything
that I can remember that pertains to theft,
breaking and entering, things damaged, etc.
I think they are about ready to put a detec-
tive on my case.
it is not only weird and scarry, it is illegal
what -- has been doing. If they find out it
is --, then that will mean serious jail time.
(I will manage to be gone by then, and
underground--the only way i will be able
to get any writing done and to have any
measure of peace; and to date! Right now
(and for the past 21 years) my life has
been too scary. You were able to get away
and focus on yourself. I have not had
that luxury since i married G. ("George")
I won't ask you to pray.
But I did want you to know. Please save
this note in case it might be need for
evidence (if I am murdered). I fully be-lieve that -- is capable of murder; he has all the qualities that made me afraid of G. Definitely no conscience. Coldness. Meanness. He WANTS to hurt me, seems to find great pleasure in it.
Ed and mom, of course, either think I am lying, or grossly over-reacting. Ed even told the neighbors that I ewas "abusing" Mom, s that they would go and support J. in the restraining order that I needed, but was denied because of Ed having durable powr of attorney, thus negating any testimony to give credibility to my fears--INCLUDING A STATEMENT FROM MOM THAT SHE WAS AFRAID FOR ME, HAD BEEN LIED TO BY J., THAT SHE WANTED J. TO BE IN FULL-TIME THERAPY, AND THAT SHE WANTED THE 3-YEAR RESTRAINING ORDER. (but...she gave in to what Ed wanted, and the two males have been teaming up against me for a long, long time--even getting some coaching and tips from George as to WHAT A BAD PERSON I AM (TERRIBLY MATERIALISTIC, VERY UNHAPPY THAT I COULD NOT HAVE MORE THINGS, VERY ANGRY WITH HIM FOR NOT PROVIDING MORE FOR ME).
[Vixen], the whole thing is a lot worse than you know, and this is enough to say.
again, please print this out (my computer now/a person TWICE has removed all contents off of my email program)
It's not fun getting older, especially when you have one/two always "after you", scaring you, being deceitful, telling lis about you all the while, and having [Vixen's doctor uncle] buy the lies (Mom doesn't any more, but she still babies J and wants to cover up for him).
I hope I'm alive next week to write to you, Mom
p.s., the lower key letters were easier to use, that's why there are not a lot of capitals.

