Sniffing the bible glue
Okay, this one is just funny. The momster just can't wrap her little brain around the whole I'm an agnostic! thing.
Hi [Vixen], thank you for writing.
I understand "busy" so don't worry about that. I hope that you
can find an un-crazy way of doing such intense work with all
the deadlines.
It is important to watch the stress level. Look at what happened
to me after all the stress on me 1979-1985 with ---, and even
before that he was a hard person to live with (but not negative
all the time, and sometimes even loving).
[Crazy Uncle], by the way, is getting worse, and in some ways is almost
making --- look like a saint. I mean that. [Crazy Uncle] is very very
troubled, and he's lashing out at [San Diego Cousin, Crazy Uncle's daugher] in some unbelievable
ways, and Mom is disturbed by his words and actions (very),
and [SD Cousin] is turning to [Sane Uncle, the DC doctor] for what to do.
[Crazy Uncle], in letter form, scolded her for wanting to be a doctor, and
said that she should go back to her earlier goal of wanting to
be a nurse (can you believe that?). Then he said that he was
only going to pay $250.00 a month to help her instead of the
promised $500.00, (and [Sane Uncle]/Mom are paying the other $500, which
now will have to be $750.00). They want to seee [SD Cousin] have the
education and not have huge debts at the end (I'm sure they would
have helped you had they not already done so as much as they did,
plus expenses on Mom/Dad's end were mounting. [Sane Uncle] ordered me
not to get a student loan to help you, by the way, and Dad told me
to go ahead). Now that the house is bringing in money, it does
make things easier.
I have a hunch that we are going to end up being a very close
family (minus [Crazy Uncle and wife]) because we are going to need to encourage
and support one another emotionally. I am learning more
(again) about Satan and how he is a defeated foe, and how we
can be victorious over the blows/distractions/etc. that he (does)
send our way. I know that I am seen as a POWERFUL FORCE
FOR GOOD by Satan, and it is anyone who has the power to
do great things for God who he goes after in big ways. I am
quite sure I am on his "go after" list, handed out to some of
his demons (who do his work), and I plan to become a power-
house for God through all this, and through a renewed powerful
prayer life. I shared some of this with God (about the ultimate
battle against of evil against GOOD, and Satan against God. I
doubt that you learned very much about this at Christian school
as the Baptists do not get in to this much. The Charismatics do,
and they are often the most mighty ones in REAL PRAYER THAT
DOES REAL THINGS that one can meet.
This is not meant to be a sermon.
I'm sure you will be hearing from [SD Cousin], once she sorts out the
immediate problems, like how can she start med. school and
not work at In/Out Burgers. I felt like we had our first good
conversation ever.
Well, I have to go EAT. I'm low on food, and on days like this
it is easy to almost forget to eat (yes, truly). I need to borrow
some bread from the girls next door (3 new ones, and really
nice, all go to UCSD, undergrads).
Closing scripture:
"Greater is HE who is in you than he who is in the world" (forget
the scripture right now).
Not exact wording: He (God) will not allow any child of God to
be touched by the devil.
Example. Job was TESTED (partly, I think so that we could have
the book of Job, and see God's viewpoint on suffering in a deep-
er way). It is almost humorous to read when you see the really
bad "counsel" he gets from his 4 friends and wife, and the re-
jection (they judge him, it is HIS fault for having problems--ever
seen that before?).
Lucifer goes before the throne of God and tells God that Job will
curse him if he is allowed to test him. God knows Job and his
strong faith, and so God ALLOWS him to be tested--FOR A WHILE,
it is obvious that Job remains steadfast. God, then, gives him
many good years (like at least 140 extra) and ten more children
and lots of livestock, and he becomes a very wealthy and great
man.
With powerful prayer we can BIND Satan, truly, and render him
powerless from HARRASSING US. I certainly know what that is
(I spend two all-nighters back to back looking for all the new
things that are missing, and in the last few weeks have come to
be certain that no human could being doing as much theft as
is going on here, often just moving things from one place to
another--demons CAN do that). BUT NOT WHEN POWERFUL
PRAYER TO RESIST HIM STARTS UP...THAT IS REGULAR. THIS
IS WHAT GOD HAS BEEN TRYING TO GET THROUGH TO ME...
AND I KNOW THAT THE PEACE THAT I HAVE BEEN NEEDING SO
THAT I CAN WRITE, SPEAK, ORGANIZE WHITNEYWORKS PLUS
ABUSE ALERT (AS AN EDUCATIONAL SITE TO HELP PREVENT
ABUSE SITUATIONS FROM STARTING, OR TO STOP THEM IN
THE EARLY STAGES, PLUS TO HELP THE MANY WHO ARE LIMPING
OR WORSE, AS I WAS FOR SO MANY YEARS. (Many women
will be writing articles on different topics, men too, so it will never
seem to be "my" site. It will be seen as a team effort, and per-
haps I will just organize it in an unseen way (nationally) and
although God will give me the credit for all that is done in
faith and in obedience to Him, PEOPLE will not see me as any
force in it. Except for entering some of my poems. No maybe
not even that. I want it to sound like EXPERTS who have spent
years in abuse work. I am an expert only in my own experience,
but I of course know more than that.
Must go eat.
Hope you can get mental rest as well as physical rest and a
true reprieve.
(Soon, I want us to talk about medical insurance. You really do
need to have it).
All for now. Love, MOM
P.S. the time may come when [Sane Uncle]/Mom pay off your college loan
for you. Who knows. It is not impossible. But, [DC Cousin, Sane Uncle's daughter] starts
college in 3 years (that soon?). Perhaps by then I will actually
be bringing in an income and be off SSI. Wouldn't that be fabu-
lous. IT IS NOT IMPOSSIBLE. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH GOD
(that is a scripture verse, forget the quote. I am very rusty on
what is where now, but that is OK, God understands!).
Again, this was not intended to be a sermon. I am just so relieved
that I know I can move forward now, AND IN A VERY POSITIVE
WAY, WITH TRIUMPH!
